Chronos, Chaos, and Charnel Appetites...

Alright, so I'm back. I haven't posted in awhile...as most of you know, Chris is finally, finally home. I've been very busy being happy! My house is a mess, but I don't care. I love my life. I love my job, I love my house. I love my Chris.

Alright. I'll spare you all the drivel about how much I love the man.

On another note, I've taken up rollerblading again. He doesn't go with me, but...I figure a little activity never hurt anyone! :)

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Billy Joel - For The Longest Time

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!

When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!

Current Mood: anxious

Motherfucker from fucking Texas fucking parked in my fucking parking spot.

I come home at midnight, tired from a shitty day at work, and have to park my fucking car on the fucking street. MotherFUCKER.

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!!!

I...am so fucking angry.

I should get over it. I can't. FUCK.

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Disturbed - Stupefy

Ooh. Nerves kicking in. I woke up in a cuddly-ass mood this morning. It made me think of how I wanted my Chris. Then it made me realise he'll be here in just three days.

THREE DAYS?!?!?!?!?

Oh god...I should have started that diet...what'll he think when he realises I've gained weight...and my hair...always a mess from work...oh gods oh gods oh gods...

He's going to change his mind.

He's going to decide he doesn't want me anymore!

*wail* He's going to ask for a ticket HOME. To MIAMI.

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: George Michael - Father Figure

Less than a week until I get my Chris back. I know I can hold on for that long. I'm sure I can...

Work's been kinda crappy, but it's tolerable. I keep getting shoved into supervisory stuff that I don't quite feel prepared to handle...but apparently I'm the best rookie they've got, and since none of the older officers want to do the stuff, /I/ end up being the one 'in charge'. Which basically means a whole lot of paperwork.

Not much new in my world, but I wanted to let everyone know I'm alive and well. And...waiting...just filled with anticip.....pation. ;)

Whee.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Disturbed - The Game

Currently nothing going on in my world. I feel bad if I don't update every few days at least, 'cause all those 'friend' people tend to...yaknow, worry and stuff.

Yesterday was good. My only day off this week. Spent the whole time RPing on NA2. Very relaxing. Get to go to work today, obviously...could get interesting. Probably not though.

On a bright note--one more week until Chris comes home! Gods, I miss that boy...I can't wait. I hope nothing's changed. I hope he doesn't come back and realise for some ungodly reason that it isn't right. I know I'm being paranoid, and it's about as likely as a snowball surviving a slow trip through hell...

I hope everything goes well.

But yeah. That's it. And...stuff...yeah...DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT!!! :(

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Staind - So Far Away

Once again, my life is boring...nothing happening, nothing new. I don't know why I bother to write that nothing's going on, except to keep what few friends I have from worrying. I've got an odd gut feeling, this morning, though...a feeling of waiting. Patience. Something's coming--it's been quiet for too long--but the Gods only know what it is. The best I can do is just be prepared...

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: Journey - Don't Stop Believing

Okay, so I didn't get to crack any skulls today. We did have a large group of people in souped-up cars hanging out in one of our lots...four of us showed up to kick them off. The timing was perfect...just as they were all pulling out, a deputy showed up...and the minute one of them hit the road, the lights went on.

I about died laughing.

We could only assume that their intention was to hang about for awhile, then start some drag racing and whatnot. Obviously, that didn't occur. At least, not on mall property.

So yeah. For anyone interested, I didn't get to break anyone's head, but...today was fun nonetheless.

God, I'm tired. Goodnight, world.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Sarah McLaughlan - Angel

Once again, not much interesting going on in the world of Jen. Last night sucked, I almost deleted on NA2 because I felt...redundant. I think I'm a lousy ST, but Jim and Clare would have none of it. While my beloved Chris was talking me down on the phone, they conspired to restore the pfile.

Ah, well.

A great deal of roleplay went on last night, and it was fairly good roleplay. Leonhard now knows that his betrothed is a vampire. It'll probably take him a good long while to get used to the idea, but he knows she doesn't feed on the living, and she doesn't harm the innocent, so...he can't really judge her based on his own past.

As far as real life goes (reality? ew...), I've got to work again today. Saturdays are always when the real shit goes down at the mall. Last Saturday we had like thirty guys show up and try to pick a fight with the Chief. That many people obviously do NOT show up at the mall to go shopping together...we managed to avoid trouble, but there is the potential that they might come back.

...part of me hopes they do. It'd be nice to see some more action. I could tell they were underestimating all of us...it'd be funny if they made the same mistake twice.

I know I shouldn't ask for action. It could get scary. But if it happens...I'm ready for it.

That's about all for now. Perhaps I'll have more to write about when I get home tonight.

Current Mood: predatory
Current Music: Disturbed - Voices

So I call my Dad this morning to let him know I'm still alive...hadn't called him in a few weeks. Apparently he and my Mom were up at the mall last night and didn't see me. Apparently my Aunt Karen is coming in tonight, staying until Sunday afternoon. They want me to go to breakfast or lunch with them on Sunday. Yay fun.

Hopefully that won't take too long. I'm nudging them at a lunch at one of the restaurants by the mall, so I can jump over to work real quick right after.

On a completely different note, the most unlikely of couples is getting married on NA2. *laugh* Aikaterine proposed to General Leonhard last night. Yes...SHE asked HIM to marry her. He accepted, of course, but the relationship promises to be...interesting. Still, she has her reasons, not the least of which being that an unwed lady in the dark ages provokes suspicion. She needs /a/ husband, and she'll be damned if she's going to marry another brute like the last one...

Of course, it's good for poor Leo too. She's the only person that doesn't look like a walking corpse to him.

I've been wracking my brains trying to figure out how in the hell she's going to explain what she is to him. That ought to be interesting...she won't wait until after the wedding to do it, though. That would just be...fucked up. And she /is/ genuinely fond of the dear man...

Anyways. That's all for now...nothing exciting happening in the world of me. Maybe I'll actually come up with VALID drivel within the next few days. ;)

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: FFX - Hymn of the Fayth

Okay, so I ran out of Mountain Dew. Which sucks, because I was forced to get my initial morning rush off a two litre of mostly-flat coke. I don't even like coke. I'm a pepsi product person. So yeah, the day started off kinda bad...down to and including the really fucked-up dream I had. It got better, though...

My hair's actually behaving itself for once. Usually I have to put a half-ton of spray gel in it to get it to stay up. My job requires that I keep it off the collar, and I find it best to just wrap it up in a bun--less for someone to grab onto, you know. Usually it takes a solid twenty minutes or so to get it up. Not today. Strangely, it behaved just fine on the first try. Perhaps it's starting to realise that, despite its odd sentience, it doesn't have a choice. Stupid hair...It's thick, and long, and most people love it, but it's such a PAIN IN THE ASS!!@!@!@!@@!!!!@@

Okay. That's it for now. Heading to work soon, but I wanna bullshit on NA2 for awhile...

Alright, so I'm really bored. I don't usually do the journal thing...but it seems most of the people I know are doing it.

If you can't beat 'em, join 'em, I guess.

I hate to be trendy, but it's a better outlet than most. I guess I'm here. Let's see how long I keep using this thing before I get tired of telling the entire known world what's going on in the demented world that is my head.

Hi. Nice to meet you. You can call me Delirium.